In this life there are some things that drive you down so low where you wish you were dead, but death won’t take you. These are not just fears, but realities, they penetrate your soul. They are not simply tangible, but in fact you can hardly grasp the thought. You spend your life hoping, and wishing that you will never have to stand up to it. This thought where insanity lays waiting. When in the face of death you are maybe scared, but courage brings you to the fact where you can bear it. You are strong. And the doubt of death waiting outside the front door is conquered. This is because you know that it is not the terrible reality you are running from, but in fact an escape. We say a Hero is someone who has true courage, but who knew that this was not death, but entirely the risk of staying alive.    

I am Nicole Roberts I am 17 years old. I understand what I need to be, and do in this world. I can be a leader and a follower. I am not embarrassed to stand for truth and righteousness. I go to an amazing church, with an amazing ward, and stake! I love my leaders, friends, and family! The world is falling apart around me, but if you will help me, and help others to lift the world out of chaos, im

morality, pride, and ignorance we can indeed live in this world together in peace, prosperity, and love. God promised us that. And I believe it. I will be a mother some day. I will be a wife, and I hope I will live to be a grandmother. I will raise my children in righteousness. I will start now to [prepare for those children to come. I will be an example to you, God as my witness I am going to do what is right. And I want YOU to hold me up to it. Ronald Reagan once said: 

"We are never defeated unless we give up on God." I wont give up. Will you?

beauty

Beauty is kindness, Charity too,
and all those things we should not go and "Boo". 
T'is lovely and sweet, funny and neat,
with a perfect rhythmical beat.
Truly itself from head to toe
shows ALL the way just to let them know. 
Loves you even when it knows not why
makes you sort of want to cry.
Beauty cares for all that it see's
and wishes all to have those keys
it knows the truth,
and will never be uncouth.
It begs for your trust
and forever will be just.
So let beauty in
and it will beg you not to sin
and then someday you will know why
Beauty's joy makes you want to cry.

Lifes picture

Colors accenting each other makes a picture, a picture is just part of a story. There are many stories in a lifetime. And yet many of the most priceless moments are not captured. This is what makes them so amazingly priceless in my mind. those things we cannot see until we experience them for ourselves. Our life picture should be full of those things: The feeling of true friendship, love, charity, happiness, and all things that make beautiful shine through our lives making a marvelous painting on a canvas so big we do not know. We should make beautiful colors to paint with and learn through life continually painting the picture that someday we and our posterity will look back on. Make your picture great, make it beautiful. Instead of making it with over a thousand words make it so that words cannot describe its magnificence.

Becoming a woman of Christ

Yesterday I went to an amazing woman of Christ fireside. I was touched by those amazing speakers. One of which knows the prophet of God Thomas S. Monson pretty well and she actually wrote his biography and has done many things of that sort. I was so strongly prompted to become as him and listen to every prompting as soon as it comes.  I am going to be an example to all those around me. I am going to rise up and bring my friends and family with me. I am so happy for being able to live where I do, and know the people I know. I love my life, and I can't wait to be a mom and teach my children in righteousness and teach them to be people of Christ. I am so glad that I dont have to worry about hating people and holding grudges against them. I love people I know everyone is in fact a child of God and we are all heir to all of his blessings if only we repent, come unto him, and take upon us the name of Christ. I love you all with all my heart. I know that through Gods plan we all can be happy for eternity. I can say this because I know it even through his holy name Jesus Christ amen.

whats going on... at the moment... ME and MY poems

Okay I was thinking of this new year, and I have made some goals. Of course I have temporal ones like: stop biting nails, eating healthy, and exercising, but the ones that matter most are the mental and spiritual ones. I have decided that my thoughts need to be better, and I need to focus on the positive clean things rather than the negative unclean. And I am not going to be afraid of what others think, or even say about me. I am going to let my light shine forth. And I am not going to be scared to change and become better. my eternal progression depends on this. I am SO grateful I have so much good in my friends and family and also in my community. Happy New Year!!! hope I can see you all in the courts on high and I hope we all make the right decisions so we can be happy and smile together with our father in heaven him and also Christ and all the prophets and just think meeting Alma and all the prophets as well! Our faith, love, and endurance will get us their.

butterfly kisses and little lily hugs

daffodil's and daisy's give out all their loves

the flowers in the meadow with sunshine everywhere

say that they are happy when you visit there.

the sky sees you

and knows who you are

lovers fly high in the sky

she knows your thoughts

your wants and your regrets

so does he

and they know who you ll be

the questions that we ask

are not simple at all

who is God?

and where will I fall?

will you go to heaven

or go down down down?

will you be a goddess

or the other way around?

the sky sees you

and knows who you are

they can number your tears

and can tell every smile

they know you

better than you do.

in the glowing water what can i see?

only me and the peculiar word be

be thou good and kind in every thing

be thou loving and clean in meaning

be thou charitable

like Christ has shown

and remember

you shall reap what thou hast sown

The world is not pleasant,

nor peaceful,

but teaseful,

it's hard and unruly,

oh so very cruelly,

why is man not so calm?

why not learn from his mom?

for I am sure her lessons were well,

but he fought

as the good spirit taught,

and the wrong one worked,

even so as he jerked,

he could not learn from the right,

so he did very wrong,

and his mother died from her boy,

oh so strong.

My heart is not big enough:

My heart is big enough to hold you tight,

to act as a blanket through the night,

but sometimes it does not cover your toes,

or maybe it still might miss your nose,

it can protect you from most of the chill,

but may need some help from others still,

you cannot live from my heart alone,

but need yours and others as I have shown.

Being happy takes talent, 

being happy is a skill,

being happy is the way I am

and you cant change it still.

I love the way I walk and talk,

the way I sing and dance,

the way you look at me

when you know you ain't got a chance.

Why life and death are so serious,

only I would know the best.

Either I've got so much pride,

or I just want my life to glide.

My confidence is contagious,

or you wish 'cause its outrageous.

You can watch and grin

while I sit and spin.

I know what I'm doing

and you're not all worth shooing.

So just watch me roll

and then pay the toll.

Careful I might break your heart.

Although its not worth breaking.

there is a nice variety in my cart,

and its all mine for the taking.

Kisses aren't afford much,

unless you have the perfect touch.

Don't mess around with my luck,

cause you'll soon find out that you're stuck.

Love or hate you may say,

but I can tell either way.

Is it you who knows the path?

Or is it not me who really knows the math?

Skill and and talents what you'll find.

Well at least you know I made it rhyme.

 ~Perdy perfect me.

Why do we have:

hands to give

eyes to see

ears to hear?

Why do we have:

minds to think

lips to kiss

arms to hug, and

friends to miss?

why have:

feet to walk

fingers to touch

hearts to share?

To do service for our fellow beings

 which is service to our God.

We have hands to hold on tight

two ears, but not to hear our loved ones fight

eyes to see the ones we need

lips to kiss the ones we miss

arms to hold on to our friends

legs to run when darkness never ends

spines to fight in times of need

mouths to speak when no one can

brains to think so we sound smart

hearts to share let no one part.

I see but cannot hear

yet the movement yells for me

It's enchantment spears my soul

And yet I feel my love yearn for it

Said I could be happy

Why tis lost in my heart?

Said it would not hurt

but the pain still lingers

The music lures me in

though the sound is not there

The voice is gone from mine ear

yet I know t'wood not waver

I feel the love of knowledge

I wish t'were not there

Where hast the sound gone?

Lost in the never ending waters.

A child cries,

a mother dies.

And life goes on.

The children sing,

the bells will ring.

Yes life goes on.

a young boy lies.

But life goes on.

A girl will cheat,

a boy will been beat.

Will life go on?

A new-born Dies,

a world of lies.

Does life go on?

A book is read,

and shoes are tread.

Life does go on.

Christ has died,

and with no pride.

So our life may go on.

Butterfly's fly,

in the big blue sky.

Yes life does go on.


Omniscience:


Everything has a purpose
and God knows it, true.
Although things feel hard,
we must endure it through.
Our trials we must fight,
for all things through Christ,
yes we must have that immortal might.
We CAN win our battle
with love from him, oh yes Jesus,
before the great and holy spirit leaves us.
Evil we can conquer,
but only through him,
who saved us from that eternal sin.

sometimes friends disappear, and you wonder where they are, and then when you ask there is no reply, to you life just stops and you wonder what went wrong, where they went, and why.

They are not just sitting by the phone waiting for your call as you do, you're wishing someone will take that time, like someone cares, I sit here doing nothing as I hear the wind whistle, and I wipe a tear and also a drop of sweat from my face because it is hot, but I cant seem to leave this place. Thinking about those fun times we used to have, but all at once its gone, I laugh then I cry, and all I seem to want to do is die.

again the tears roll, and I feel that sensation where I want to give up, but also try. I still love you, but now your gone, I care, but there is no one to tell how I feel, and somehow I can stand up again and fight my war, my battle for freedom from the thought, even though there is no place to go to be free from it I still try and my life goes on.

Its been forever

So I haven't really spoken on my blog since... actually since I have written in my journal. Which has been a long time.
          I started school. Im going to Montessori three days a week. Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. And on Wednesday I am going to ifamily. It is a sort of mom school thing... it basis its model on Thomas Jefferson Education. With a few tweeks here and there. Its lots of fun. My day there is pretty much Semenary with Bob at 7:30, sadly I have to get up like way early :P. Then we go home get the kids ready and head out to Idaho falls (long drive for 8 kids).
We get there at 12:00 pm and then I have Advanced acting. In this class I am pretty much just getting ready to do a play. The play we are doing this year is "The Light Princess" Its about a princess who her aunt, an evil witch lady cast a spell on. The spell being that she would make her parents dissapointed in her.... this made her have no gravity...that of which i'm kind of confused at how the writer came up with this... But anyways she has this lake that she loves to swim in with this prince dude and he is pretty much in love with her at first sight... and then he dies to save the lake and they get married and live happily ever after :). Soo the news about this is that I am the Princesssss! :) :) :) And its pretty stinken intense! I'm soo stoked! I worked hard though :) its going to be an intense play!
        Anyways after advanced acting I have Chemestry. I love doing the experements! they are fun! :) they make me smile. And (dun dun dun dunnnn.) I have Euclid (which is a guy that does geometry without numbers and stuff) It is awesome! and I actually understand it! Like it makes prtty much complete sense!!!! EEEK! :D But then the day is over. Fun I know! :)
         About Montessori. I wish I could be doing it full time, but I am actually doing only English and USF (Untited States Foundations) Soo that pretty much stinks and I am teaching dance starting in two weeks.
           We are moving in a week or soo I hope if our trim is up and electricity on. So excited to downsize and just forget about this huge mess! :) we started the fear factory and it totally rocks! I love it! This last week I just went to st. george, and ceadar city, UT. For a field trip. It was a BALL! :) I loved everything about it... except I was sick and I could not do everything and eat anything and watch, listen, and feel everything I wanted, sadly. And as I write this I am still deathly ill. The last day I was on drugs so that I could feel better :) and how it worked! I got to sing on the way home! :) and it made me feel happy inside! We made up a story of a fairy girl with a beard and wings on her ears... and her beard had super powers. Also one about a Ninja cockroach named Jabiniaro :) it was soo much fun! Loved it! Then I had a dance off... sort of thing with my teacher Brother Richardson :) and we made people in other cars smile. :) good times! you gotta love em! Love yall! -Nicole